Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I see, I feel, I illuminate

"If a lighthouse could be said to possess a soul, it would be the great light pouring from its lantern each night to guide home the lonely mariner. Like a star, it shines dependably and regularly every night. It can beam steadily or it can flash. Its beacon can be white, red to mark danger area, or red and green to show the port and starboard sides of a channel. Clouds and fog may obscure the beam, but when the skies are clear a lighthouse is a bright star by which to steer." (from The DeWire Guide to Lighthouses of the Pacific Coast - California, Oregon and Washignton by Elinor DeWire).

A few months ago, one of my students now ordained Priestess, Hester Aira, did a high healing session for me and in that session she told me I am a lighthouse and my purpose is to illuminate and bring clarity to people. Since she told me that, I´ve been researching lighthouses and became really interested in these icons of light. Hester´s words resonated with the worlds of my teacher and mentor, Linda Iles when she told me that I would become the torch guiding my students in the mysteries of Isis as a new Priestess Hierophant. If I combine both messages received within a three year period, I know that I am meant to shed light on situations and guide.

Being a lighthouse is not an easy task. It requires one to really see everything in situations and to illuminate the darkness that some people are not ready to see. Lighthouses shine so hard that you can see everything, the good, the bad and the ugly. Some people don´t like seeing the ugly. They may deny it, it may show them a part of themselves they don´t really see as personal but instead they project on others, or they may be totally unaware of these parts of themselves. During the past few months, my vision has become very clear and I can see things I did not see before, I see patterns and I feel energies that I was not aware I could see or feel. It´s been an amazing experience to be able to see through and connect at that level because it allows me to feel we are all one and we are all connected. This awareness also allows me not to judge others because others are also me and if I am judging them, I am judging myself as well and how could I? How can I judge the behavior of one person when it´s just a reflection of myself? I can only love that person unconditionally and love them just the way they are. If the situation calls for it, I will shed light on their situation but not judgement. I will just illuminate their way so they can see where they need to go and get out of the darkness. In this capacity, I am reminded of the words of my mentor and creator of the Queen Teachings, Ava Park, when she says "The Queen just sheds light and walks away." 

My journey of shedding light started several years ago when I got my first tarot deck and I started learning the cards. My first cards came in the magazine Cosmopolitan and I remember I was about 12 years old and I started playing with the cards and doing readings for my friends. As time went by, I got the traditional Raider White deck and started doing readings for my whole family, my cousins, my cousins´friends, and many more. It´s funny that even today, every time I go back home the first question I get is "did you bring your cards?" This is the confirmation that I had shed light for them.

When I was 19 years old, I started studying Astrology and that has become my second tool for illuminating the path of others as well as my own path. I got my natal chart done when I was 18 years old and it was so accurate that I became a believer of that science and it combined with my love for the Tarot and divination.

Today I feel that all the tools I´ve learned in the past will complement my journey towards my purpose of being a lighthouse for others. I feel that my intuition is growing very strong and now...

I see, I feel, I illuminate.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union under the Fellowship of Isis


About Hester Aira and High Healing

About Ava Park and the Queen Teachings

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Being One with Nature

There are times in life when magic and reality blend in and we don´t know whether we are part of a movie or we are just living in the real world. Last weekend I had the opportunity to experience magic first hand. I spent the weekend with a group of friends in South Lake Tahoe and I got to experience the elements and their magic.

The place was spectacular! In the back of the cabin we were staying in, there was a river flowing. We were surrounded by trees, rocks and birds. The energies of Nature were running high in this location and I couldn´t help but tap into the power of the animal spirit. The trip began with my best friend handing me a big stick that became my power staff as soon as I grabbed it. He gave me this stick to help me balance while walking on a log on top of the river. It was scary to try to get to the rock and not fall in the water but the adrenalin rush was exhilarating and it was an amazing experience. I could feel my Maiden Queen coming out and saying come on!!!! No Fear!!! Just Do It!

In the evening, I enjoyed summoning the wind and feeling the Silfides all around playing with me. You could feel the power of the wind blowing and moving the trees. It was such a powerful experience feeling it blow with such a strength but I was deeply grounded and asking for more. 

On Saturday, I continued my journey with the elements and I decided it was time for me to cross the river. I went for a hike by myself and as I reached the shores of the stream, I felt compeled to cross it. The current was very strong and I know I may have been a little out of my mind to attempt such a thing but once again, my Maiden spirit was saying... Do it!!!!! Feel the power of the current and go with it. You can do it. As I started crossing the river, I could feel my legs shaking because the current was so hard and as I stopped to gain balance I was thinking... you should keep moving, this is freezing water and your feet will freeze. I reached the other end of the river and I was filled with accomplishment but that was not it, I had to go back to the other shore to get back to the cabin so I started my way back and in the middle of the stream, I grabbed a rock as a reminder of me crossing the river so every time I feel like I am not strong enough, I can remember this day and this time. When I got back to the shore, I did my happy dance and six blue jays came to talk to me and celebrate I had crossed the river! There were some crows too. I felt a little bit like Snow White connecting with the animals from the forest but it was one of the most empowering moments in my life. I felt I was alive and I could conquer my fears.

Looking back, I know it was a snowboarding weekend that turned into my first full blown Druid experience. I couldn´t help but think about the book I am reading "The Path of Druidry by Penny Billington" when she says... a modern druid is one that is reading a book and stops looks around, notices the spider and says hello to her, then goes back to the book. I did a lot of mundane things during the weekend but I definitely stopped, observed nature and pay my reverence and devotion to Mother Nature in all her forms.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the Archdruid Union

Friday, April 5, 2013

Filling the Gaps

While driving to work today, I was listening to the book "Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr." In this CD, he was talking about the power of our minds and how the fill in the gaps of information with past conditioning. He gave an exercise that is very common, he said to draw a circle but stop before you can complete it and look at it, your mind will recognize the circle even if it is not complete. The same happens when a person misses a word in a sentence and the brain will complete the sentence so it makes sense. Our minds add meaning to the gaps and the way our minds fill those gaps is with feelings and experiences from the past.

If your mind is similar to mine, it usually has a selective memory for negative experiences! Is it? Is your mind similar to mine?  It´s funny how my mind can fill the gaps with the worst case scenario. I remember when I was working with Ava Park on the societal myths I have and one I was very attached to was that "Always be prepared for the worst" and yes the word worst is included. If a friend does not call me, I may think he or she is mad. If a person does not fulfill a promise I think there is something wrong with me... well, that is in the past. But, in the past, I did fill in the gaps with the negative experiences I had before. Those experiences that supported the feeling that I am not enough, that there is something missing with me, that I am not perfect just in my imperfect ways.

After studying the Queen Teachings with Ava Park for about one year and a half, I have come to realize that I do not need to fill in the gaps with negative emotions or positive emotions. I just need to remain present in the now moment and if I need clarification of any situation that resembles to something from the past, I can directly ask the person or evaluate the situation. I don´t need to support any previous statement that does not fit me anymore. I am also able to ask clearly what the situation is and I am also able to express my feelings in a very non-emotional way. I am just stating what I feel in an impersonal way.

Filling the gaps has only brought me conflict and confrontation, stress and anxiety. From now on, I am done with filling the gaps. Now, I choose the clarity of the Queen and the presence in the now moment without making any assumptions. Can you say the same?

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union under the Fellowship of Isis

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