Wheel of Fortune

Spinning! Spinning! Where will it stop? What direction will it show? The Wheel is turning and you don´t know where you will go but you do know that what was before is no longer so, and it´s time for the big leap. Trust your destiny! Trust your vibes! Jump! Say YES to destiny and follow your heart! These are the messages I received this year as I turned 37 which adds to 10 and shows a Wheel of the Fortune type of year for me. Yes! Combining Tarot and Numerology, you can find out what your Major Arcana for the year is and mine turns out to be my Personality Card - number 10 - The Wheel of The Year.

Sometimes the arrow turns down and sometimes it turns up... not every wheel of the year time is a happy and lucky time... there may be challenges and another version of this card is when you have a gun and you spin the wheel and  you trust... is that bullet yours? Trust is a big lesson during the period of the Wheel of Fortune.

2015 has been a transformational year so far and I know I haven´t seen it all yet! I have buried some of my dreams and made decisions that will shape my destiny. For years I debated whether I wanted to have children or not... this year, the clarity came and I realized that my books and my oracles will be my children. Motherhood is not only birthing a child but giving birth to a project or oracle. I have also realized that I should still have the two bags... las valijas itinerantes... because I have not reached my final destination and I am a Priestess on the move. I know I have limited time where I am and I intend to enjoy my time here living each day as it is the last day. The future holds multiple possibilities and I trust Goddess to show me the next steps but I have learned that the less attached you are to things and places, the better you are to move around and follow your heart. I have accumulated many things in the last 13 years, even after my divorce! It´s time to lighten the load and really prepare to have the two bags that will contain the essentials and you know it will have one bag full of books!!!! Thank Goddess there are storage facilities in the US so I can put my life in a storage facility if needed, ha ha ha! Yes, I am attached to some things!

2015 has brought me several teachers and messages! When you are in the flow, the things that are meant to be for you will come your way. I still remember when I saw the Hay House Summit in facebook and I signed up for it. Little did I know that I would be introduced to people that would changed my life completely! From becoming an Angel Card Reader with Doreen Virtue to taking several of Sonia Choquette´s trainings. I have also studied with John Holland and Colette Baron-Reid in the past 4 months. I feel my life has taken a leap into a new dimension where the separation between muggles and I is growing stronger... Yes! You heard it! Like Sara O´Hara said.. "You may not want to tell somebody that this crazy lady in Ireland told you to give them a kiss next time you see them because they will not understand the messages of the deceased". Reality is that I am fearless! Baba Yaga is with me and I don´t fear being different, I don´t fear seeing things. I don´t fear the other dimensions so I am open and I am listening.... 

Next month, I will be facing the Parliament of World Religions and I wonder if they are ready for what I will bring... once again... I may be the Uranus/Aquarius energy that breaks structures but I know I will just be me, a pioneer ready to show a different side of the coin.

As the Wheel turns and spins, I know it will continue showing me the direction to take. I will flow... I will be spontaneous, I will take a different round... trust my inner compass. It is time, I am ready. Are you? Where is your Wheel of Fortune leading you? 

Many blessings,

Carolina Amalia Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Ebb and Flow

We are all sailing in the ocean of life and some of us are going with the ebb and flow while others are trying to push the river... others are just giving up and blaming the universe for all the stagnant water they have around their boat without taking any responsibility for the situation they face today. I have to say it is easier to blame the universe than take ownership of the big swamp we have created in our lives. It takes courage to see that things are the way they are and intend to change them so we can create a beautiful ocean that will move us in the direction of our life purpose and makes us feel uncomfortable when we are derailing from our authentic life.

Since I came back from Miami last April, I can say that my life has experienced a big shift. For the first time in my life I chose to let Goddess lead the way and move myself out of the way. The Universe decided to send me an SOS and show me the way to the Hay House Summit, an online event that introduced me to several teachers and mentors whose message was just what I needed at that time. I started working with Sonia Choquette, Colette Baron-Reid, Jennifer Grace and Doreen Virtue. I reconnected with the Angels and Archangels, I opened up to my intuition and all my guides and decided to start living a magical life. I also decided to start making sh#t happen like Jennifer says. I committed myself to let the flow of life move me... These days I start my day asking the Divine to guide me and use me to bring Her message to this world. That every step of my journey is for the highest good for everyone concerned and also for the rest of the world. 

Living a guided life does not mean we don´t face the ebb. The ebb is also there to help us re-adjust. It is also there to rock our boat and provide an opportunity for us to learn a different path. We should be as grateful to the ebb as we are to the flow because both are just helping us grow and become the person we were born to be... our authentic self.... that self that is not based in fear or tradition, it´s not structured by the tribal beliefs but it is the one that is our core, our heart, our authentic being. We may come from different planets and we are all unique in our own way but one thing that brings us together is that each of us has a purpose, each of us has a mission and the closer we get to it, the happier and more fulfilled we feel. The farther we are from it, the more disconnected and unhappy we feel and then we feel that the ebb is just a curse and we may tend to become victims in our own lives.

Today choose to be moved into the ebb and flow of your own life. Choose to live an authentic life. Choose to not care about what others think or say about you. Choose to be YOU! The unique and beautiful being you are. Be grateful for the ebb that re-adjusts your course and let your boat move with the flow. The ocean of  your life is yours to explore. Just let go of control and trust. Your authentic self is waiting for you on the other side.

Love and Light,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Who is directing your life?

Are you sitting in the driver´s seat of your life? If you are not, who is driving? Where is your GPS? Do you know where you are going? Clarity leads to better manifestation of your own reality. The key is to know that you are always co-creating your reality with the Divine. If you don´t know what you want to create, then your manifestation will reflect that. I usually tell my clients it is important to have as many details about what they want to create so the Universe can deliver it to them. Know what type of item, what color, what size... if you are trying to manifest a job think about what hours you want to work, what days, what type of job, what type of environment in the company, do you want to work for others or be self-employed? The more details the better because if not they Universe may send you something that will not be what you wanted but it fits some of the specifications that you had.

Last month, I had the opportunity to work with Jennifer Grace, the author of the book "Directing your Destiny: How to Become the Writer, Producer and Director of your Dreams" and it really reminded me that we create our reality. It´s our thoughts and our beliefs what create our reality. It is also about the clarity you have to create what´s in your heart instead of creating a horror movie that has no happy ending. 

In order to get clarity of what we want to manifest, we need to connect with our authentic self and let go of the illusions and mandates of our lives. It is important to peel the layers to get to what is really important. Sonia Choquette says that in order to find our true self we need to connect with what we like doing ... One way is by completing the phrase.. I love...

I love teaching. 

I love dancing.

I love writing.

I love reading the cards.

I love helping others.

I love being a guide.

I love being a lighthouse.

You get the concept, right? Then you can affirm it by placing your hand on your heart and asking yourself "Is that true?" If you get a profound YES! it means that´s your authentic self talking to you. Then it is your task to bring to this reality the situations that connect with your authentic self because if you don´t do that, you will be faced with resistance and feelings of being uncomfortable or not in line with your purpose and your true nature.

Working with these concepts have made me realize that I need to bring my life more in line with my purpose. Most of you know that I have an 8 to 5 job that is not very connected to my spiritual path and my purpose in life so I am committed to make my Priestess job a sustainable job so I can dedicate my life to be a healer, a teacher, a guide and help others find their purpose in life and follow their dreams. It all starts with re-writing my life story to make my purpose the center. I know I can manifest my reality. I am deeply grateful for all the experiences that have brought me to where I am because without my 8 to 5 job I wouldn´t have been able to realize that my path is different. Without the teachers I´ve had so far, I wouldn´t have been able to get the clarity of my new objective. Now I can see it, I can name it, and I can claim it! 

I am the director of my life. Can you say the same? Who is directing your life?

Love and Light,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

If you are interested in the teachings of the authors I mentioned above, check their websites

Jennifer Grace https://www.jennifergrace.com/

Sonia Choquette http://www.soniachoquette.com/

Own Your Gifts

The radio is tuned in and the station is sending one clear message "You are a healer, you are a teacher, you are a guide, own your gifts now!" You could look the other way and continue ignoring the messages but you could also decide to be brave and start a journey to make that happened. We all look for our security blanket but it is when we realize we don´t need one because we are always covered by the Goddess´grace and Divine guidance so we area always protected. Feel safe, feel protected, know you can manifest your destiny.

Each of us has a unique purpose and it is up to us to hear that calling and take action or just continue doing what we are doing because we are scared of trying something different. Society, our family, the traditions, the tribe... everyone has a message for us of what we should do or should not do but deep within we know what we are supposed to be doing. We all have gifts that we are to share with humanity and many of us are hiding those gifts just because we feel it may look strange, we may be called weird, crazy, psycho among other things. We may be left alone and isolated if we really show who we are. Have you ever felt that you would be rejected if you expressed your spirituality? How about if you decided to choose a career path that is out of the norm?

During the past few weeks, I´ve been expanding my knowledge on psychic abilities, mediumship and angel therapy. I have found these areas of study fascinating but also have brought me to the question on how many times we receive messages from our guides, our spirit, and the Goddess and we disregard it or we think we are crazy. It is easier for us to accept that we are crazy than the fact that we have a gift and our guides are always around showing us the way to make our life purpose come true. They push as and pull us when we are going in the wrong direction and make us feel as everything is running smoothly when we are on the right path. Have you ever experienced synchronicity as you were at the right time in the right place? That´s your sign! Have you ever experienced that everything was blocked and no matter what you did you found problems and limitations? That´s a sign too! Don´t expect a hollywood sign as a spirit will come to you and talk to you like in the movies. Signs are subtle but they are there and if we tune in we can definitely hear them and see them and feel them.

What signs are you getting these days? What is the Universe trying to tell you? Pay attention because you will definitely hear them. I know I hear them and they are saying loud and clear "Own your Gifts".

Blessings,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Peeling off the layers... time to shed

If you have to choose a word to describe the month of June, what would that word be? June... June... June... Thinking.... so many words!!! Learning, awakening, growing, expanding, light, crossroads, review, letting go, ending, beginnings... but if I had to pick one, I would say my word is Clarity. June marked the beginning of a self-discovery journey that started with hypnotherapy and counseling and followed with the beginning of my work with Sonia Choquette´s online classes and Colette Baron Reid´s class on Weight Release Energetics. The combination of all these items together created the perfect recipe for clarity and direction. Mercury Retrograde and Shadow period was also helpful to review and re-direct energies. As I look at my round table, I see several journals that mark the commitment to self-exploration and the promise of fearless shadow work that can lead to more light and clarity in my life. It´s time to free the energies tied in old regrets, old patterns, and old beliefs. The only way we can change our world is if we change ourselves. We are all one and it starts with each and everyone of us doing our own work, healing our own selves and accepting our own truths. When we change ourselves, we change our families, we change our communities, we change our cities, we change our states, we change our countries, we change our world.

Doing self-work is like peeling the layers of an onion because we look at one layer and once we are done with that one, we can look at another layer.. and so on and so forth. My June exploration focussed on forgiveness work and connecting with my guides more strongly. Forgiveness is not only about forgiving others but it is also about forgiving ourselves. We carry a lot of baggage that is connected with shame, regret, sadness, or emotions that got stuck within ourselves. As Sonia says, forgiveness is a process and you can not think your way through forgiveness, you need to move the energy. In order to move the energy, you need to look at those things that have created those emotions and see why you are holding on to them. Is it because it is easier to deal with the uncomfortable known that face the unknown? Is pain comfortable? As I was working with the exercises I had a few A-ha moments but the most enlightening of all was to realize that I´ve been holding to my weight since I came to USA because it´s my layer of protection.  It´s the extra padding that protects me from the outside. I usually have my guard up and I take a defensive position. It´s like I live protecting myself even when protection is not needed. Many years ago, one therapist told me that instead of blocking energies, I should just allow the things to pass me by and not get attached. This defensive stand is also portrait in my auto-immune disease where my body does not know that my thyroid is not the enemy and attacks it. My own body attacks itself out of protection and fear. It´s time to change that paradigm and trust. Trust that my guides are there to protect me and they are always around. If I want to hear them, I need to be open and in order to be open, I need to let down my guard and protection. I think it´s time for me to come out of the fortress of my own life knowing that I am safe and I am protected. It is ok to shed the weight because I don´t need it to protect me. It has fulfill it´s purpose and now it´s time for me to find my inner peace and discover who I really am, what I love doing and forgive all those that have hurt me and also forgive myself. 

As I continue peeling off the layers and there is always something to shed... What layers are you peeling this year? What areas are you ready to shed?

Many blessings,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

No need to be invisible anymore... You are safe.

Have you ever felt that you needed to be the wall flower in your life? Have you ever felt that it was not safe for you to be seen? I have. Not only I was brought up in a big city filled with dangers,  a place where you do not want to call attention to yourself, you don´t want to be the prey because there are so many predators out there! But I also felt it was not safe to be seen in my own house. There were dangers beyond my ability to understand at that age that made me feel I should not voice my feelings because it was not safe. I should not stand out because it was not safe. I should not be too visible because it was not safe. It was much better to be invisible than be seen. That was the beginning of a story of shyness, of not wanted to dress too much so I would not call attention towards me, I would speak the bare minimum and keep my silence... I did everything I could to just be invisible.

When I decided to become a Priestess, I knew that there would be a time where I would need to come to the front line and face my fears. I had to accept that I had a valid message and a voice, and my voice was important. I need to realize that it was okay to be the center of attention at times and get comfortable in my own skin to be able to face audiences. I had to learn to love my body the way it is even if I am quite bigger than I was when I was in Argentina. I used to be 130 but that number seems unreal and after an eating disorder, I learned weight does not translate in beauty. I am created in the image of the Goddess and since She is beautiful, I am beautiful as well.

After 6 years of being initiated, I have faced a few presentations, workshops, rituals, and I can say that even though I still get nervous, now I am feeling much more comfortable in my own skin and I am not invisible anymore. I think getting nervous is normal and a sign that I am alive but it is facing the fear and doing it anyway what gives me power. I still have the little voice inside myself that says it´s not safe to call attention to yourself or to speak your truth but my inner self is stronger now and does it anyways because it is okay to have a voice, it is okay to take some space, it is okay to take time, and I don´t need to apologize for that or become invisible. I am a lighthouse and I am here to illuminate the way for those who are lost and scared. I don´t need to hide. It is perfectly fine to shine with my own light and bring my message to the world.

Many blessings,

Carolina Amalia Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Stop the Self-Destruct

Have you ever wondered why when other people or situations hurt us we may have a tendency to hurt ourselves instead of choosing self-care? I was with my therapist today and we were discussing my childhood when she said the words... "oh you were self-destructing yourself then" as I was discussing my eating disorders when I was young. Her words resonated with me because I started thinking about all the times that I have chosen to hurt myself instead of dealing with the feelings of pain, of abandonment, of loneliness, of lack of love and so many other emotions that were related to growing up in a house with a mother with a severe mental disorder and an absent father due to his job.

When we are children, we don´t have the tools or the ability to recognize the patterns. We are just reacting to certain situations the best way we can. I can recall my severe asthma or my allergy attacks where I would just burst into itching. All signs of calling for attention and taking it up on my body to experience those emotions I could not process.

As we grow up, we start developing other strategies that usually involve some sort of self-destruction whether is over-eating, over-drinking, over-working, among other over-words that we can think of. Have you every got too busy so you can be numb and don´t feel pain? I know I have done this in the past where my schedule was so full I hardly had time to breath but I was so busy that I could not even think of how I was feeling.

They call it comfort food but every time we reach for food to fill the empty spaces in ourselves or to stuff our emotions up we are moving towards self-destruction and away of self-care. We can also abuse of alcohol or drugs to numb our feelings. Any kind of substance that creates the desire outcome - not feel our feelings and just deny reality because reality may be to hard to deal with.

Relationships can also be an addiction and I know I have had my fair share of toxic relationships or relationships that were there just to help me deal with feelings from the past and try to resolve old patterns. As Jung said, until the right diagnosis is reached, no healing can occur. We need to realize our patterns in order to be able to heal them. Awareness is key.

Next time you feel like working 16 hours in a row, think What am I trying to cover with this tendency? Why am I not able to set up healthy boundaries with my employer so I have a better work/life balance? 

In the past, I would have had a hard time cooking for myself when I would be alone. If my ex-husband was there it was easier to cook for us but if it was just me, I would just fix something quick. These days, I am choosing healthy meals, organic vegetables, plenty of delicious fruits and healthy foods that will nourish me. I know I have been trained to take care of others first but that has changed in the past few years. Now I put on the air mask first and then help others. It´s time to stop the self-destruct and focus on providing for myself all those things that in the past I expected others to provide for me. It starts with me. I am my own best friend and I come first. 

No more this person will self-destruct in five seconds... Now it will be this person will heal herself and get stronger every day choosing healthy patterns, nourishing relationships and better situations.

Many blessings,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/