Speed

Have you ever had the feeling that you want to go away... far far away? When you look around and everything is collapsing like The Tower Card in the tarot and you don´t know where to go, you find yourself in your car driving to no destination, trying to figure out if you want to crash with the car in front of you and press the reset botton, start again in this learning planet or move on. Wondering why you don´t have your passport in your car.... where can you go? Who can take you in when you feel you are sinking in despair and you need somebody to hug you and say everything will be ok?

We all have those days, I had one of those myself and I remember the song from Nine Inch Nails "The Fragile" playing in the background while I was driving..... I was at that point where I was ready to let go and the voice in the stereo came up and all I could hear was "There is no place I can go, there is no place I can hide... I will not let you fall apart." I know I did not fall apart, just returned home and live another day but it was such a pivotal point in my life when I could find myself with nowhere to go, nobody to go to and feel totally alone but not lonely. For the first time in my life, I understood what my friend and priestess says when she tells me we are never ever alone. 

These are the times when you hit the bottom of the cauldron and you are ready to be reborn. Where did we go wrong? Why do we look at our lives and feel like we should have taken another turn? The direction we are going seems uncertain, seems dangerous and very scary. All you built is collapsing in front of your eyes like domino towers and you wonder if you will be safe. Will you be ok? 

One thing I know as a Priestess is that the Goddess never leaves you alone and she does not give you any lesson you can not face. You just have to man up... like they say... or woman up.... and jump! Like the Fool in the tarot, it´s time to drift, it´s time to let go of fear and go down the cliff because what´s waiting on the other side is worth it. Fear is just fantasized events appearing real.... once you push through fear of the unknown and all the what if´s, a bright sun is waiting on the other side. You just have to go through labor.... in the end, you are rebirthing yourself into the person you were meant to be not the one they want you to be.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
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Member of the Archdruid Union
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Founder of Tienda Roja
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