Saturday, March 30, 2013

Validation and Attachment

March.....  What a month!!! Can I say again? Maybe I get a repeat because this month has rocked my world big time! 9.99 Ritcher scale earthquake and that means "Severe damage to all or most buildings with massive destruction. Damage and shaking extends to distant locations. Ground changes. Death toll usually between 1,000 and several million."

When I read that definition I couldn´t help but rise my hand and say YES! This is me. I got hit in many areas in my life and as a Queen I have to sit quiet and find my center. Then detect, correct, and execute. I think I got that from the Securities and Exchange Commission motto Prevent, Dectect, Correct. Some things in life can´t be prevented but we can definitely detect them and correct the course so we don´t end up crashing to a big wall.

March has been a test month for me. I was confronted with many pieces of information and now I have to re-route my course of direction. As a Queen, I visioned my path but now I have to adjust because we can´t be static, we are moving and we are living the now moment. We are creating the future in the now moment and like a chest board we are adjusting to the moves that the universe makes. We couldn´t predict every move but we can certainly adjust.

During this month; I have been faced with issues about Validation and Attachment. It was not only me but several people in my circle have been experiencing similar topics or lessons so I thought it was time to meditate on what validation means and what attachment means. I just started listening to the book "The Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Luis Rubio, Jr." and in this book he talks about attaching ourselves to ideas that do not belong to us and the level of intensity we attach to those things will be revealed in how we feel about those things.  Sometimes we think things should be this way or that way and we are attached to the outcome even though we may be better off by flowing with the situation, just like water, following the current and seeing where it takes us. In his book, Miguel says that we need to learn to accept ourselves just as we are, perfect in the now moment just because we exist. We are bombarded with commercials that tell us we need this product to be happy, or we need to be skinnier to be perfect, or we need to be more beautiful... you name it, we are conditioned 24/7 to believe there is something wrong with us and we attach to those believes and let them rule our worlds. He keeps asking "Is knowledge controlling your life or are you controlling knowledge."

Validation is a big topic in general and I do feel we, women, usually seek validation outside more than others. My theory is that we have been conditioned by being born in a patriarchy that always places women below men. We have also had to live with the message that we are dirty because we bleed, that we are weak, that we are less than perfect, that there is something wrong with us. This message may be implicit and you got to read between the lines but it is a message women live with every day and we decide to become like men to reach equality when we need to find the power to live like strong women in a society led by men and show the world that we can be women and strong, we can be women and powerful, we don´t need to adapt and be like men because we are perfect as we are with all our female characteristics. 

In thinking about validation I realized that at times I have seek validation by different means. Sometimes talking to friends and finding consensus on the decisions I have made. Sometimes with divination trying to feel that the path I had chosen was the right for me and that I was not making a big mistake. Sometimes seeking approval from people I have put in a pedestal or up high and I respect. 

During March, I was tested in a big way and I have found my center. I know that the only validation I need is my own and that what I feel is right may not be right for others, but I am releasing my attachment to fit in, I am releasing my need for external validation and I am starting to live from my own center. I begin to accept that I am perfect just the way I am and that every situation fits perfectly in the big puzzle of life. I am in the drive and even though the maps are changing, my internal GPS is on and ready to go.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union

Saturday, March 9, 2013

I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs

Yesterday, I was watching Katy Perry´s movie for the I am not sure what time... maybe 20?!?! and the phrase "She wants to be the first Katy Perry, she doesn´t want to be the next Avril Lavigne" resonated with me. When I heard this phrase, I thought... I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, or Z Budapest, or Vicky Noble... I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs. The way I see the world is unique and I don´t need validation for what I am seeing or creating. As Ava Park taught me, I am the Queen of my own realm and whoever wants to be part of my realm will have to follow my laws and rules. There are plenty of realms for everyone to choose from but if they choose mine, this Queen has her own rules. She may not see the world the way everyone else sees it. She may have rules that break all "normal" rules but it´s still her realm. She is the Queen.

So many times we feel we want to have this or that, we want to be like this person or that person. There is a lot of societal conditioning on what we want and also how we should live our lives but is that the way it is supposed to be. If you look within, can you see that things may not be black or white? Can you see that the rules that they set for us are not our rules? Why would we feel guilty if we are just choosing something different? Is that bad? It may be bad for some of the people who are  programed with the old conditioning but we are moving to the next era, the next evolution and we need to raise our vibrations. What was white before may be too strick right now and we need to learn that we can bend the rules, we can cheat at times because the program is outdated and does not know what we need now. We are the new human beings and we need to start living from a different place. What was before is no more and it´s time to change. It´s time to live from our own heart and soul and not let others determine who you are or have to be.

We can´t be the next X or Y or Z, we have to be our authentic selves. We are not shaped by rules anymore, only our own rules. We determine who we are and we drive our own cars of life. We are the driver, we are the conductor, we are the creatrix-creator. It´s time to say NO to the rest of the world and say YES to your own dream. What do you want? What´s your purpose? What´s your desire? 

I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the Archdruid Union

Note: I can´t recommend Ava Park´s teaching more... her teachings are priceless. Check them out:

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Serenity in the presence of Chaos

As above, so below. As within, so without. Not many times in life I have the opportunity to witness my inner processes in the outside world. Sometimes, I get to see a rainbow and I know everything will be ok. Last weekend, I have the opportunity to witness the power of the sea crashing on rocky shores and that was me! I could feel the serenity in the face of the chaos of life. I could feel the grounded self planted in the soil feeling the waves crashing on myself and eroding those parts of me that do not serve me anymore. I could also feel the waves shaping me and creating a new woman but not moving the foundation that is really well planted and very solid. I know my core, I know my center. I can bend, I can shape, I can change but deep within, I will always be my core - a being full of light - a lighthouse.

During my trip, I was able to observe nature. The mists in the ocean, the crows flying around, the big trees talking, what a trip!!!! You could feel the magick all around you and feel the power of the Goddess filling you. Right there, I realized how disconnected we are becoming from this type of magic. We live in a world filled with technology. The same technology that connects us also keeps us apart or in limited contact. The other day, my best friend sent me a picture of people on a train and they were all looking at their phones, isolated in their own worlds. That picture got me thinking of how those technologies that make the world a global village also makes us disconnected from real people and real things. How we get sucked into the computer and forget to look at the trees or connect with the birds or go to the ocean to hear her sign.

I am a leader of an international organization and the people who belong to my circle are from all areas in the world. Technology keeps us together and connected in the web of life so I am very grateful for technology but connecting with Nature is also very important and there is a lot of magic to be seen in the real world. This is one of the reasons why I decided to start working on a new class for my community, one devoted to the Druid path and to connect with Nature. One that is based on experiencing nature and getting away from the computer. We need to feed our spirit with the energies of the environment and start seeing Nature as our teacher once again. It´s time to find harmony between technology and nature. It´s time to balance the scales so we can be whole individuals and not just zombies. It´s time to go back to the elemental powers and the fire of Divinity in everything. We are all one.

As I sat on the cliff, observing the waves breaking on the shore, I felt the power within, I felt serenity in the presence of chaos. I felt home.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina Amor-Boggs
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union