2014 - An Opportunity to Rebuild

2012 did not bring the End of The World as predicted but 2013 did bring a massive amount of transformation that has felt like a Tsunami hitting the shore and taking everything I know with it. I never experience a Tsunami in this lifetime but I´ve heard that in those moments, before the big wave hits, you can see the bottom of the ocean. Let me tell you that I have seen the bottom of the ocean this year in many areas of my life. 2013 has felt like the year of total demolition picturing the Tower card in the Tarot, lightening has struck and brought down many structures I thought were solid. 2013 has also made me question my issues around trust, around my intuition, about my magickal power of manifestation and many other things. It has presented an opportunity to bring everything down so I can have space to rebuild my life the way I want it in 2014. It´s true that we can build around an existing structure but there are certain times in life when we just have to demolish and make space for the new. Start again with a white canvas that allows us to create what our dreams and visions are in the present moment.

2013 brought changes in many spheres in my life that made me wonder whether I could weather the storm and how much it would take to blow me away because I firmly believe that we have the power to choose our reactions in life and how we respond to events in our life shapes the experience. It all started with the company I work for being sold and having to move offices... this made me start thinking how committed I am to this place and whether I would be better off in another place. What do I like? Is this job the right fit for me? If money was of no concern, would I be in this job? There has always been the underlying current in the past four years that I am not good enough to reach the next level, there is always something missing and I am never getting there. When I look at my spiritual practice, I know that if things are not going the way I am envisioning is because Goddess has a better plan for me and is trying to show me with different situations that I need a change. The problem is that my Moon in Taurus makes me so stubborn and I will bring the wall down if necessary but I do reach times when I see reality and I move on. It may take days, weeks, months, even years, but I do get to that point of no return and I move forward.

This same principle applies to other areas in my life as well. The other day, a friend of mine told me that some relationships have an expiration date. When I heard that I was like... I know what you are talking about. 2013 was the year where my marriage expired. Some people say divorce is equal to experiencing the death of a loved one and I would agree with that since the entity that was created by two ceases to exist. This process brings lots of emotions, grief and pain for all those dreams that brought the two people together but never came true, the expectations each partner had that may or may not have come true, and the realization that it did not work out. 

Death has also been a part of 2013 as I said goodbye to my granny and my spiritual mother. October and November are bringing the final push so I can burst out of my cocoon and I spread my wings of freedom and transformation. I still remember my grandmother looking at my Buckland´s Book of Witchcraft and saying to my ex-boyfriend "She is into that......" and you could see the rolling eyes but I know deep in her heart, she knew that path was my path and I was meant to be a Priestess of the Goddess. 

I also recall Lady Olivia Robertson when she initiated me as an ArchDruidess and looked into my eyes and said "Now you go make it your own, this is for you to transform into your own" and I have. Every day as I light my candle and say her name and ring my bell, I feel she is still there, very present, telling me it´s my game. It´s my time to make it my own and create my community the way I envision for the good of all.

As I look back, I see 2013 had a domino effect in my life. When one piece fell then many others fell with it. I could look at it and become a victim but I am choosing to see the blessing in disguise in all that has happened so far. As I read Power Spellcraft for Life by Arin Murphy-Hiscock, she states that spells are used as an active way to shape our reality and they are used for positive change. 

After touching bottom in 2013, I am still sitting in the driver seat of my life, my GPS are my emotions and intuition, and I am ready to transform my life making 2014 an Opportunity to Rebuild. What is your 2014 looking like? Where are you now? Where do you want to be? What do you need to change? We create our future in the now moment. We are only one month away from 2014. What do you want? What does 2014 stand for for you?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

When you are going through hell, just keep going!

A friend of mind told me a few weeks ago when everything seemed to be collapsing in my life the famous saying of Winston Churchill "When you are going through hell, just keep going!" and I think it is a great saying for Mercury Retrograde times. Thank Goddess Mercury turned direct today at 4:30 pm so we are out of the retrograde period but it´s not over yet, my friends! We know that there is a Shadow period when Mercury transits the degrees he retrograde before and once Mercury passes the point in the zodiac when he turned direct, that´s when it is finally over but the light is at the end of the tunnel and we begin to feel the energy moving forward and we can start putting in action all those things that we re-visited, re-vision, and re-evaluate during the retrograde time.

October was a very challenging month for many of us. Do you ever feel when it rains it pours? I think that´s reality for many of us. During October, I had to move offices after the company was sold a few months ago and it seems that when it comes to work, you never get a dull moment or know what type of monster will come out of the woods to attack you. Many times have I felt like Alice in Wonderland in this company as I never know what creature I will greet in the morning. It feels like a pill will make you larger and another pill will make you smaller. You get blown out of proportion to be deflated with unrealistic expectations a minute later. You are never good enough to get to the next level because there is always something missing and you have no clue what that is... like a video game where you are looking for the hidden clue but you have absolutely no idea where to find it or how to get it and you never reach the next level. "When you are going through hell, just keep going!"

In the relationships realm, I faced a few storms during this Mercury retrograde period. It seemed that we were all in our own stories and couldn´t see the other person for who that person was. Hidden agendas, mysteries, lies and deception... Mercury Retrograde in Scorpio brought a lot of the Scorpio issues in relationships. If you wonder what the scorpio issues are, they include but they are not limited to "deception, mystery, power over or power fights, death and transformation" and yes - I said not limited to so there goes the disclaimer!!!! I was in a legal conference last week and they were paying a lot of attention to different words and disclaimers so that stuck with me! When you are going through hell, just keep going!

Talking about Legal  vocabulary and the Legal System.... This Mercury Retro time was fun in that realm... yes, fun is a very sarcastic way to put it. First, I got some papers back from the court that I had to refile even when I was told everything was ok and spent hours in court to verify it. Then I get called to jury duty and have to go to court once again.... and top it, I got a speeding ticket in June and I had till December to complete traffic school but my insurance decided to up my rate now- before the legal timeframe of completion of class... legal world..... challenging and definitely.... "When you are going through hell, just keep going!"

In the end, we all survive Mercury Retrograde and now it has turned direct once again and we are still standing. Things return to normal and the lessons we learned during these periods are those of revision, reevaluation and revision. We need to go back to the drawing board and rethink what we are doing and whether that is helping us reach our goals, are those things really working? Are you following the definition of insanity that says do the same thing and expect a different result? Can you change your actions to impact your results? So when you are in your darkest hour and everything seems to fail just remember "When you are going through hell, just keep going!" there is a light in the end, you will find it too.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/