Are your fears running the show?

Are you paralyzed? Do you feel a fear so intense that it is not allowing you to move forward in life? For the past two years, I can say I was there. I would look at my life and I wondered how I got there. I would see all those things that did not make me happy, those things that would drag my energy, relationships that consumed me, lack of decisions that paralyzed me, and a continued sense of putting other people´s needs first and being a victim of self-sacrifice. 

As I looked at all those things, the what if´s of life would come to my head. What if I lose my job? What if I don´t have money? What if I can´t support myself? What if I end up alone? What if my family does not support me? What if? What if? What if? There were zillions of what if´s navigating my mind and running my show. I was so scared that I could only see the bad things happening instead of seeing the potential of new creation and feel that I can trust this universe I am living in and know that everything is part of the grand plan for my next evolution. 

Once I read a book that said F.E.A.R. stands for fantasized events appearing real. When I saw this phrase, I couldn´t help but think how true that statement was. How many times our fears are so big in our heads but once we move pass them, we realized it was not that bad after all. Change generates lots of fear but the only thing that is constant in life is change. If we are not changing and growing, we are dead. Even the rock in the pond changes by the erosion of the water. It´s up to us to decide what will run our show and what fears we allow to be in our minds. Don´t get me wrong, fear is good because it allows us to think things through but when fear is so intense to paralyze us is when things are not ok. 

That´s when you have to ask yourself: Do I live in misery or a half life or do I push through fear and manifest a life it´s worth living for and that when I look back I am proud of all the adventures and all the decisions I made as I walked my path? What do you choose happiness or unhappiness? What do you want for you fear or excitement?

When I was in Argentina, I learned to live in the now moment and not let my fears run the show. If you know me, you know I think million things an hour and my head is always thinking something. I have a very overactive mind! It´s good at times but other times it´s just focus on all the things that can go wrong as I always want to be prepared for whatever I face. I was sitting in my dad´s apartment and I couldn´t help but start thinking "Oh Goddess! When I get back I have to do this and that and that... Oh no... what if I ....." You can imagine all the things that would come to my mind as I face my big life transition but in those moments, I decided to stop and honor that at that time I was on vacation and I was not supposed to be worrying about these other things, I was not supposed to be letting my fears ruin my vacation, I was determined to rest and have a good time. When I get to the point of decision making I would decide, but before that, I would not worry or fear as those energies only bring more of those energies to my life.

Now, as I am in a major overhaul of life, changing my name and rebuilding my home and my life. I know that in my heart of hearts I have peace. I know I did the right thing. I made the right decision for my life and it was worth the birth pains because there was pain, there was fear, but once I moved passed it, now I am shinning with a new light and I am recreating myself in the way I want to be instead of staying in situations that brought me unhappiness or numb feelings just because I was to scared to make a choice. Life is too short and when you want to remember you are gone. The question is have you lived your life fully or have you let your fears run your show?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amalia Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Lighting Strikes

The Tower. If you have ever seen a Tarot deck, you may be familiar with the Tower card. This card symbolizes a 9/11 in life. People jumping off the building, lighting striking and bringing everything down with a powerful hit. Nobody wants to get the Tower in a reading but when you do, you have two choices... embrace it or deny it. I chose to embrace it!

As I mentioned before in my blogs, I knew there was a before and after Buenos Aires 2013 and I was not wrong! When I landed in the USA, my reality was different from what I have left behind two weeks before. My name and status have changed and I was ready to be free. I have also found some blessings in disguise because the Universe opens many doors once you are ready and I know I signed up for all this demolition because it is time to rebuild but before I can rebuild my life, everything has to fall in pieces, burn in ashes and then with crystal clear clarity, I can vision my own reality.

Every step I take towards my vision just brings more strength, more power, more wholeness. I know the Carolina that came back from that trip is not the Carolina that left. I know I was tired, I was burned, I was polluted. Being away from everything helped me see reality as it is and regain the strength to manifest my reality. I am the magician! I am the wheel of fortune!!! I am spinning and I am creating... I am visualizing and I am letting go of everything that is not meant to be there.... This is it! This is the turning point and I am so happy because I feel no fear. I am like the fool! Ready to jump and measure no consequences because I trust. I trust the Universe knows and the Divine has Her plan. 

I´ve been scared for too long and I have wasted too much time. Now I am ready to burst out of the cocoon and face reality. Face my own reality. Deep inside I know I can make my dreams come true! I have signed up for this massive change.... the universe is shooting surprises and all I say is..."I am safe, I am ok, I will manifest my own reality. You can´t shake this lighthouse, no matter how big the wave is... I will stand strong, I will stand tall, and I will be the one standing after all."

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amalia Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/

Clarity and Manifestation

We are only 11 days into the new year and it feels it´s been months. The past 10 days have been more productive for me than several months in the past. I feel I left for Argentina on December 14 and when I came back, the world has shifted! I came back to find a court document to start my name change and everything started falling into place and moving at very high speed. When I look back at 2013, I can´t help but wonder why was I stuck so much? Why couldn´t I manifest my reality? Then I realize that I was lacking clarity and I was distracted with too much drama around me. It took for me to be away from everything and everyone to realize what I really wanted in my life and for my future. 

It is hard to get a vision for life when you are engaged with people that take your energy away, people that drag you down, situations and places that only take from you and don´t give you anything in return. In those moments is when you are just in defense mode and it is too hard to visualize a way out. You are just trying to survive, day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute. Those are also the times you realize who is really by your side for the long run and who needs to be let go because it´s only taking energy from you and not giving you anything in return. In relationships, I really follow what Ava Park taught me in her Queen Teachings "mutual and reciprocal" motto. Being away has given me some clarity on certain things that I have let be in the past but they will not be accepted or tolerated in this new version of me. Changing my name back to my maiden name is much more than a name, it´s a way for me to tell the world "This is who I´ve always been all along and get ready because I am back. I am stronger than before and as independent and free as I was 11 years ago before I move to this country." It´s time the USA feels the power of the AMOR name. I am really reclaiming my inner self, my roots and what I am made of. I am out of the bog and into the love because as a lighthouse, I am a beacon of love and a guide for all those who really want to find a way to their authentic selves. 

My own authentic self has been hiding in the dark while the person that I was supposed to be to survive and thrive in this new country took place. Now this person is no longer needed because I have realized who I am and I know that is more than enough. I don´t need masks, I don´t need titles, I don´t need hierarchy. I just need to know what I want because once I know that, it manifests at light speed and if it doesn´t, then it is not meant to be and I need to learn to detach from those dreams that are not really what´s best for me. There is my plan and there is the Divine plan. If things don´t fall under the divine plan, then I will find blocks and issues and it will not manifest. If it is part of my plan and the Divine plan, it will manifest as fast as it can. As I said, it only took 10 days for me to change my name once I was back and determined. 

I am a great manifestor. I just need to have clarity and then things flow. 

2014 is the year of Carolina Amalia Amor. A powerful woman that knows what she wants and will create it because if there is clarity, I can definitely manifest it. No more BS and no more distractions! Just clear mind and focus so my life is just a reflection of the vision I have for myself.

What´s your vision? How are you going to manifest it in 2014? What needs to be let go? What needs to remain? What needs to take a different shape? January is the month to set everything in motion and plant the seeds. If you can dream it and think it, you can create it!

Many blessings,

Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/