Finding your Center

Sign or not Sign? I say sign! I´ve been living my life in a very magical way since 12-21-12. The world did not end that day but something has shifted dramatically. Since that day, I live a life of purpose, I live a life of tuning with the energies, I live a life where I am not scared of detecting, correcting, executing and eliminating. I know those are very strong words but there is no time to play games anymore. It´s time to wake up and really find our center and live from that place of power, that place of ownership, that place of authenticity.

Last weekend I watched the movie Rise of the Guardians for the second time. I am usually the lady connecting the dots and seeing meaning on everything that is around me. When I watched this movie, the part that really stuck with me was when Santa Claus showed Jack Frost a babushka doll and asked him what his center was. A babushka doll is one that has many layers and each layer contained one of Santa Claus´characteristics - passionate, brave, loving.... till he got to the center and there was a baby with big eyes, eyes of wonder because he saw wonder in the world and that was his center. 

When I saw this scene, I couldn´t help to think what my center is and what other characteristics are contained in the babushka doll of my life. I know I am passionate, tenacious, happy, perseverant, and in my center there is light because I know I am meant to guide, I am meant to teach, I am meant to illuminate reality and shed light for others to find their way out of the darkness. That´s who I am. A lighthouse guiding those sailing through rough waters over to safe shore. I may do this by lighting up the air with jokes or by having a serious conversation where I point what I see for the person to meditate, observe, detect, and execute. What is your center?

Talking about our centers and the shift in energies since we crossed the 12-21-12 portal, it is time we are responsible for our own energies and our own manifestations. We are the magicians of our own lives and that´s also at our centers. We create our realities and we are not able to blame anybody else for our reality anymore. You can´t blame it on your lover for not creating the situation you want in your life. You can´t blame it on your boss for not giving you the promotions. You can´t blame it on any external situation because you are the creatrix or creator of your own world. If we all live from our centers, we are able to walk side by side in the journey of life but we are 100% responsible for our creations and we are the rulers of our worlds. When you move from your center or you put another person in your center, you lose power and you lose your ability to create your reality. Instead, you start living another person´s story and reality and lose sight of what is really important for you, your center.

I challenge you to find your center today and start living from there because when you start, your life will shift greatly and you will become the Great Wizard of OZ and by OZ, I just mean your life, your dream, your reality. If you can think it, you can create it. If you can create it, you can rule it. If you can rule it, you will sit in your power and your center. 

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Mutual and Reciprocal

During the past three months, I´ve been participating in Ava Park´s Queen Online Teachings class. This class is amazing and it has provided me with lots of meaningful information that I am trying to put into action. A few weeks ago, we were working on the Queen and Relationships and Ava started the chapter by saying that "Relationship means the "state of being mutually and reciprocally interested."" This phrase resonated with me  very strongly and made me think of all those times when I´ve been in a relationship where I do most of the work... I am the one texting, I am the one initiating, I am the one inviting the person out, I am the one reaching out to the other. In doing so, I give and give without receiving much what leads to the imminent death of the relationship.

When I read Ava´s phrase, I was like WOW. This is exactly how I feel and I have failed to realize that the relationship was not mutual and reciprocal. When only one person is interested in keeping the relationship going, this relationship has the days counted. The days till the end are determined by the tenacity and perseverance of the person who is driving the relationship. A relationship is like a plant, you have to water it or it will die and the two people involved are responsible for watering this plant of life. 

Looking back, I can see I have been involved in many relationships that were one sided. I can also see that I am a very tenacious woman and I will not give up easily but there are times when you have to give up and those times are when there is no hope to go on. There is no life left in the relationship and it´s time to just let go and move on.

There are times when relationships suffer because one of the parties is going through a rough patch and the other party has to give more than usual. This situation is only sustainable in the short term and has serious impact on the relationship if it lasts for a long period of time.

Sometimes we think relationships are forever but then realized that the lessons together have been learnt and there is nothing else to share. 

In the end, the question becomes are your relationships mutual and reciprocal? If not, is it time to let go?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Note: I highly recommend to attend a convocation  or participate in the online Queen teachings with Ava. These teachings are priceless and life changing.

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Wide Awake

A few weeks ago, one of my best friends told me I should watch the video Wide Awake by Katy Perry. If you read some of my blogs in 2012, you know Katy Perry talks to me in a very special way so when my friend told me to check this video I couldn´t help but go to youtube and see what she was talking about. After watching the video, I was fascinated! The Hermit! The Tower collapsing! So many symbols hidden in her video and they all talk to me and my last three weeks. I feel I am finally awake and ready to kung fu pow the false foundations and let go of everything that does not serve my purpose anymore. Yes, I was asleep and now I am awake.

Fear has the power to keep us down. We can think so many things but from the saying to the action there is a long way and at times we have to be patient with ourselves. I remember when my friend did a healing session to me on 12-12-12 and told me it was time for action. It was time to take the bull by the horns and execute. It was time to take the driver seat and press the gas pedal in my car, a car without rear mirrors so we can not look back, and move! action! trust! At that time, I was pretty tied to my situations and not ready to jump down the cliff, I was not ready to be the fool and start all over again.

As I kept listening to Katy, I really resonated with the song Pearl and I felt she was talking to me when she said:

"Do you know that there's a way out
There's a way out, there's a way out, there's a way out
You don't have to be held down
Be held down, be held down, be held down

'Cause I used to be a shell
Yeah, I let him rule my world, my world, oh yeah
But I will come and grow strong
And I can still go on, and no one can take my pearl

You don't have to be a shell, no
You're the one that rules your world, oh
You are strong and you'll learn that you can still go on
And you'll always be a, a pearl

She is unstoppable"

As I danced this song in the gym, I could feel the energy of the words and they casted a spell on me. They gave me strength. They gave me hope because I can definitely feel like the ruler of my world. I am the Queen of my Realm and I know that I can´t look the other way anymore.

These past four weeks have been a trip. Hypnosis sessions, self analysis, shadow work and really looking at myself in the mirror and looking straight in my eyes and asking whether this is the story I want to be living or not. Is this the realm I created? Is this what I want for the future? What do I want? Who do I want by my side? Many questions. I know I have changed lots in the past few weeks and my life has transformed in front of my eyes.

Now I am the designer of my world. Now I have a chance to re-create and co-create with the Universe. Now I can be me again. Now I can let go of pain and forgive and forget the past. Now I can look ahead and create the future I want in the now moment. I am a lighthouse and my foundations are very strong! I am not floating in the current or held down by foundations that are not mine. I am my own Captain. I am the driver of my own car of life, nobody is conducting me anymore.

I am wide awake.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org