Rest, Reflect, and Remember

There are times in life when everything seems to go wrong and no matter what part in your life you look at, everything seem off. The Universe has its ways of showing us the way to transformation. The other day,  the new CEO of the company I work for said that one of his mottos was that the only constant in life was change. When I heard that, I couldn´t help but think he was right. If we are not changing and evolving, growing and transforming, we would be stagnant. I would say the only certainties in life are not death and taxes but death and change. 

2013 brought lots of change to my life. I did not get the job I wanted, my grandma passed, Lady Olivia passed, one of my aunties passed, I got divorced and I also got a rude awakening in other relationships in my life. Now, in 2014, I find myself trying to catch my breath and rest. I redecorated my home the way I always wanted and it has become my sanctuary, my place of rest and relaxation. I have also discovered how much of myself I have forgotten in the past 10 years of living in this country. I am definitely reflecting on the past decade and the changes that have taken place and I try to remember the good, the bad and the ugly so I can heal those wounds from the past and not repeat them again.

It´s not surprising that the planetary aspects in the skies are really aligned with the energies I am experiencing. With Venus Retrograde in Capricorn on December 22, we began a process of re-evaluating all the relationships in our lives and how we love ourselves and others. It´s a time to put under the microscopes those relationships that do not serve us anymore and let them go. We are also asked about how we connect with our professions and whether our job is our career or just a job. If it is just a job, then it´s time to find something more connected with our soul purpose and let go of those things that are obsolete for us and do not bring us any joy.

Mercury turned Retrograde in Piscis on February 7 and it will stay retrograde till February 28 leaving it´s shadow period in mid-March. Piscis talks about idealization and sacrifice. Mercury is asking us to ponder in what areas in our lives are we just sacrificing ourselves. It also asks us to re-evaluate why at times we may not trust our intuition when it tries to communicate us messages that are important to us.

Mars will turn Retrograde in Libra on March 1 pushing us to re-evaluate how we deal with anger, conflict and assertiveness. Saturn will also turn Retrograde in March in the sign of Scorpio asking us to rethink how we deal with power, responsibility and intimacy issues.

As you can see, 2014 starts with several planets turning Retrograde so we can take the time and rethink, re-evaluate, re-vision, and re-do many things that have not worked fine in the past, relationships that do not serve us anymore, jobs that are not meant for us, conflict that could have been dealt better with, among other things. 

With a New Moon in Piscis on February 28, we are asked to think where do we need to trust our intuition and take a leap of faith? We are being challenged to empty ourselves of limiting concepts and beliefs, bitterness and resentment, shame, blame and guilt - anything that holds us back in duality and darkness. Like the caterpillar morphing into a butterfly, we are dissolving old patterns so we can transform, transmute and transcend old patterns. 

With 2014 being the year of the horse, we are asked to move forward but before we can do so, we have to rest, reflect and remember so the direction we choose is align with our soul purpose and our mission in life. 

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
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Member of the Archdruid Union
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Self-ish.... Guilty of charge!

What is to be Self-ish? Many people associate the word selfish with the word egocentric but they are two different words and they have two different qualities. Selfish as defined by the American Heritage Desk Dictionary as "Concerned only with oneself." while egocentric is described as "Interested only in one´s own needs or affairs, self centered."

When you get on a plane, the first thing the flight attendant says is to make sure that in the case of an emergency, you need to put your mask first and then help others. In the past, I have helped others first before putting on my air mask and then I was running tired, burned, angry and resented. This year, I decided that it was time for me to start being a little self-ish and putting my mask first. Yes, you read right... I am purposefully choosing to be self-ish as really concerned only with myself because if I am not ok, then nothing will be in my universe. It begins inside and from the inside transpire to the outside touching everyone in multiple ripple effects in several dimensions.

When I was a child, I always put my mother´s needs first as she was sick and needed care. When I moved to the USA, I put my husband´s needs first, then my friends´needs first. There was always somebody that came first and I would push myself to do things that I really did not feel like doing just not to disappoint anyone or cause trouble. Some people called me co-dependent, other did not say anything but they just took what I gave unconditionally until I realize that life is about giving and receiving and if we only give, we will dry out and have no energy to give anymore (Thank you Ava Park for the Queen Teachings!). Relationships are about "mutual and reciprocal care." It is not one way. It is not about one person´s needs being the only needs valid.

Today, I had an eye opening experience after several clarity moments in the past two weeks when a person just picked up a plate and did not even think about picking a plate for me. I was blown away... but then I realiezed how many times I have been treated that way, as my needs don´t exist, as I don´t exist. I am just there to serve, to clean, to mother, to meet others´needs.

Here goes the memo to the world!!!! I am not that one anymore!!!!! As when I came to this country and the lady at the social security office told me "SIGN YOUR NEW NAME, YOU ARE NOT THAT ONE ANYMORE" I am telling the universe today I am not that one anymore. I am the person that puts myself first and makes sure that if I don´t feel like doing something, I don´t do it. If I don´t feel like talking, I don´t talk. If I don´t feel like party, I don´t party. I am just following my internal voice that tells me what I need at the now moment and I go with that. I have already lost a few relationships due to this change but if it is the price I have to pay, let be it! I prefer the people that are around me to accept me as I am and not that are around because of what I do or give to them.

Did you say Self-ish?....... Yes! I am guilty of charge! I am putting my mask first and then the rest. Take it or leave it! Your call! You know what my call is...

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
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Founder of Tienda Roja
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No Hooks!

Don´t bite the hook!!!! I read that book a few years ago by Pema Chodron and somehow the image of her words have come to life for me since I came back from Buenos Aires. As I got off the plane, I have been faced with many variables that I could not predict. As a Virgo, you may know that I have plan A, plan B, Plan C, and just in case I also have Plan D and E because you never know what the Universe can through to you and you need to be ready! As I face the challenges that life is bringing to me, I do it with effortless motions and I try to not get attached to any particular outcome but trust that everything that happens is for the better and that I will eventually see the blessing in disguise.

The other day I was talking to one of my friends when I found myself saying "I have no hooks... they can toss anything they want at me and it will not stick because there is nothing to grab to." When I read "don´t bite the hook!" I was working on some anger issues and the premise of the book was to eliminate the emotions that cause a person to get upset and react so there are no hooks to grab onto. If there are hooks, people´s words will take you on a trip where if you are triggered you may end up in a turmoil that you did not expect so the best strategy is to have no hooks so nothing can grab onto you.

As I have mentioned in the past, my annual rising sign is Piscis and one of the characteristics Piscis has is the ability to surrender and go with the flow. They don´t get attached to anything but instead they may be floating between the worlds with the good fish and the bad fish swimming together in perfect harmony, shadow and light, accepting what is and letting go of any attachments.

During the first month of this 2014, I have been faced with some situations that would have triggered me. I am pushed with deadlines, people are showing their true colors in my life helping me determine who can stay and who can go in the journey of life. As in the Mission, when the guy is carrying the bad of things going up the mountain and the priest cuts it off and lets it fall in the abyss. I am seeing the bag of my life moving away from me and trust me it is painful but when I am in doubt, I remember how I was 11 years ago when I had to leave everything for a dream, two bags...that´s all I brought to this country and I had no hooks. I had dreams and visions for the future but nothing else was holding me down. Now I am at the same pivotal point in life where everything is resetting and I am beginning again. This time I am older, hope wiser, and as good as a manifestor as I was before so I will make my vision come true.

One thing I am sure, I have no hooks! You can try provoke me, irritate me, or try to get my attention but I will not respond. Not because I don´t care about you, just because nothing sticks. I see reality as it is and I accept it. I go with the flow and in that flow I know what my intuition tells me and what is true for me. I am following my own GPS in life and I am definitely sitting in the driver seat of my life.

No hooks! Just speed!

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina A. Amor

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org
Member of the Archdruid Union
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union
Founder of Tienda Roja
https://www.facebook.com/groups/441201419296609/