Tuesday, October 14, 2014

You need to come apart to come together again...

Humpty Dumpty sat on a Wall....
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall...
All the king´s horses and all the king´s men
Couldn´t put humpty dumpty together again.

Why would the king´s horses and men put humpty dumpty together again???? Of course they can´t! It´s not their job to put other people together because that´s our personal journey. We can not expect others to come help us, come rescue us, come get us out of the dark because it is our inner lesson. I think I did not realize how hard I would fall when I jumped but looking back, I know it was always better jumping than staying stagnant with the energy brewing in the bog.  

I would not lie, there are moments one may feel it´s better to stay as is instead of going through the ordeal of the emotions, the memories, the broken dreams. Is it better to settle for less than being alone? I don´t think so. I think I have settled for less many times in my life and that´s not ok but fears pop up and make us wonder, make us second guess ourselves and think that we should be giving another chance... maybe this time this person changes... maybe this time is different.... maybe I did not see things right... so many maybes and so many options to second doubt what intuition tells us.

It took me two years to jump off the board at the pool but once I jumped, I felt amazing... I was able to let go the fear and do it anyways! When I started my divorce papers on Valentine´s Day last year, I felt fear but I decided to love myself more than staying in a relationship that made me feel lonely even when I was married after 10 years. It´s hard to realize that things we thought were ok or we were trying to convince ourselves were ok are not and it´s time to make a decision. It may take me a long time but in the end I will jump, I will move towards what´s best for me leaving behind those things that don´t serve me anymore. It is necessary to come apart so we can come together again... whole and complete. Don´t fear the break as it brings transformations and it will pull you closer to who you are meant to be.

Many blessings,

Carolina A. Amor

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