Every morning, I wake up and perform my personal practice at my altar that includes prayers, mantras and taking a card from a deck for guidance. As I shuffle the cards, I say "May the Goddess lift the veil so I can see, May the Goddess give me clarity to understand, May the Goddess help me see the messages in this card." Yesterday, I drew a card from "The Seventy Two Names Cards by Orna Ben-Shoshan" and the message was "You are fumbling your way through darkness trying to overcome a period of glumness and looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. Blind faith will support your journey of re-enlightment. New solutions will be revealed along the way. It is your responsibility to follow the signs. Depression or glumness shall be healed. What was lost will be found again." When I read this message, I understood I had been a little blue with my foot and focusing a lot of energy in what I don´t have instead of seeing all the wonderful things I have in my life and being grateful for that. We have a tendency to focus on what is lost instead of those things that we do have at the moment and also have total faith that everything happens for a reason and that we will understand the lesson at the end of the path.
It´s interesting to see how our perspective changes depending on the situation. Last week I went out with my best friend and when we were walking, we came across a man that was in a wheel chair with the same boot I have on my left foot. When he saw me, he just said "I can´t wait to get to where you are now!" In that moment, I smiled and I told my friend I could not believe somebody wanted to be like me with the boot... I have been feeling so handicapable in the past few weeks, not being able to do many things by myself, feeling pity for myself and here was this man who was in a worse situation than I was saying he couldn´t wait to that stage. In that moment, I realized I needed to be grateful for where I was. Things could always be worse and I am learning a lot by slowing down and seeing, paying attention, and being grateful of every little thing in my life such as being able to go shopping by myself or going back to the gym and working out a little.
Nothing lasts forever, whether good or bad, so in a few weeks when the boot is gone, what was lost will be found again... and gratitude will be always present.
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis