Monday, July 5, 2010

Reflections of the Journey

When I look back at the events that took place last week, I can only see magick. Since the time I got to the Airport in San Francisco till the time I got back to the San Francisco Airport, everything seemed to go effortlessly and with a purpose. There are several examples of synchronicity and how Isis was present with me all along. One example that comes to my mind is the fact that on the last night before my journey back, I returned to my dad's house and as we got to the sixth floor, the lights went out. It was two in the morning so I thought the lights of the corridor had gone out but then I noticed the elevator's lights went out as well. Yes, we had a black out as soon as I reached the sixth floor. The first thing I thought was "Thank you Isis for not letting me get stuck in the elevator at two in the morning" but then I started meditating on the meaning of darkness and going into the dark. This year, with my trip to Buenos Aires, I have experienced two Winter Solstices - one in the Northern Hemisphere and one in the Southern Hemisphere. Winter is the season of going within, of finding the answers to those questions that are coming up, of confronting our shadow and planting the seeds. This second winter in my life was a call to go within and verify whether I was on the right path or if I needed to change anything, what new seeds I needed to plant or needed to tend from my last Winter Solstice. Meditating on the journey since the beginning of 2010, I can see that everything is where it needs to be. I created the Circulo de Isis to bridge the knowledge about the Goddess from the English community to the Spanish community, I started translating the Fellowship of Isis Liturgy, and started paying attention to my cyclic ways of being and how the impact my life so I can live my life fully. During my trip to Buenos Aires, I realized that I want to work with women and teach so I decided to create a group for Priestesses to share and learn together. A few weeks ago, a man contacted me because he wanted to become a Priest and that made me realize that I want to train only women to become Priesesses, I feel the need to share with women and women mysteries. Like a friend of mine said, I can not be everything to everyone and this is where my focus is going. It does not mean I can not train Priests but it means I choose not to do so since my training will be focused on women and their mysteries.

When I landed in Argentina, I released the stress of having to see everyone while I was there. Instead, I replaced that need with the fact that "whoever I needed to see, I was going to see" since things will structure that way. Funny enough, that happened during my trip. I did not meet with everyone but I did meet with all the people I wanted to meet so the trip was balanced and full of harmony with times of being alone, times of meditating, times of sharing, and times of learning. It was a perfect blend of all the things I needed.

One of my goals during this trip was to find stories of the matriarchal line in my family. I wanted to learn about my mother, my grandmother, my great grandmother... and so on. Luckily, I was able to collect these stories and cherish them. My dad told me some, then my Godmother told me others, and the stories were weaving together. I was also able to see pictures and go on a trip to the past and rediscover my roots.

The big lesson I learned while I was in Buenos Aires was "Be Thankful of what you have." While there, I was reminded of how hard life can be, how people may be choosing between eating, or buying clothes, or paying bills. Listening to my cousins talking about the fact that they were only able to buy a pair of boots and that meant not paying the healthcare bill or having to not eat cheese because it was too expensive made me realize how lucky I am that I have a job, that I have food and I don't need to worry about whether I will have enough to pay my bills or buy clothes. It's just incredible to see how people adjust to their reality and how hard times can be over there. Overall, it was a great trip and I know some of the lessons I learned there will stay with me forever. Today, I am grateful for who I am and what I have and the opportunity to live in a land where I don't need to worry about the essential things in life or the fact that I will go out and get robbed or killed while going to work.

Blessings )0(


  1. I've felt the pull, like you, to explore my maternal line. Unfortunately, I have no resources open to me which is a great shame. I've traced back my maternal father's line back 400 years but I know nothing about the women who'd given birth to my ancestors. And that is such a terrible shame.

    Wish you all the very best in your woman weaving.



  2. Miss you and many of the sisters...glad to see you here. This is a great post...glad you had a wonderful time in Argentina!