Yesterday, as I was walking in Borders checking out different things, I found a book mark that really spoke to me. This book mark had a poem from Jill Wolf:
"Don't quit when the tide is lowest, for it's just about to turn.
Don't quit over doubts and questions, for there's something you may learn.
Don't quit when the night is darkest, for it's just a while 'till dawn.
Don't quit when you've run the farthest, for the race is almost won.
Don't quit when the hill is steepest, for your goal is almost nigh.
Don't quit, for you're not a failure until you fail to try."
During the past week, I was reaching a breaking point in several areas of my life but the one that was more prominent was work. There are times when I wonder why I am still there, why I put myself in the position of feeling like I am a failure because my boss makes me feel I am not good enough. Then I realize that in doing so, I am giving my power away and that she should not have that kind of power over me. I always try to remind myself that I am doing my best with the tools I am provided and if I fail due to the lack of direction, it is not my fault after all. It's hard to be in a position where you never know what is going to happen next and the way you learn is by making mistakes and trying not to make another mistake again. There are positions that allow you to be self sufficient but there are others that require direction. My current job falls under the second category and direction is what I am lacking. As I woke up this morning after dreaming of being lost in a school, trying to find my way, trying to decide what to do next, I couldn't help but realize that I am in the mists again. I am in the process of searching what is the next step when it comes to career. Do I choose what makes me happy and sacrifice some income? Do I choose what gives me money and continue being unhappy? I am at the crossroads and I am faced with different options, but the question is what option is the best for me, what option leads me to my life purpose and to bring into this world the gifts I am meant to bring.
When I saw the book mark with the words "Don't Quit" on it I saw a sign. The sign was telling me that even though I am facing the roadblocks and I am being pushed to the extremes, in the end, there is a lesson to be learned and I just need to stick with it and try to figure out the best route. If everything was easy, I would not learn anything. It is in the hardships where we learn how strong we are. Problems are just opportunities in disguise to get to know how powerful we are. So when you think you had enough and can not take it anymore, just think again and don't quit.