Filling the Gaps

While driving to work today, I was listening to the book "Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr." In this CD, he was talking about the power of our minds and how the fill in the gaps of information with past conditioning. He gave an exercise that is very common, he said to draw a circle but stop before you can complete it and look at it, your mind will recognize the circle even if it is not complete. The same happens when a person misses a word in a sentence and the brain will complete the sentence so it makes sense. Our minds add meaning to the gaps and the way our minds fill those gaps is with feelings and experiences from the past.

If your mind is similar to mine, it usually has a selective memory for negative experiences! Is it? Is your mind similar to mine?  It´s funny how my mind can fill the gaps with the worst case scenario. I remember when I was working with Ava Park on the societal myths I have and one I was very attached to was that "Always be prepared for the worst" and yes the word worst is included. If a friend does not call me, I may think he or she is mad. If a person does not fulfill a promise I think there is something wrong with me... well, that is in the past. But, in the past, I did fill in the gaps with the negative experiences I had before. Those experiences that supported the feeling that I am not enough, that there is something missing with me, that I am not perfect just in my imperfect ways.

After studying the Queen Teachings with Ava Park for about one year and a half, I have come to realize that I do not need to fill in the gaps with negative emotions or positive emotions. I just need to remain present in the now moment and if I need clarification of any situation that resembles to something from the past, I can directly ask the person or evaluate the situation. I don´t need to support any previous statement that does not fit me anymore. I am also able to ask clearly what the situation is and I am also able to express my feelings in a very non-emotional way. I am just stating what I feel in an impersonal way.

Filling the gaps has only brought me conflict and confrontation, stress and anxiety. From now on, I am done with filling the gaps. Now, I choose the clarity of the Queen and the presence in the now moment without making any assumptions. Can you say the same?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Member of the ArchDruid Union under the Fellowship of Isis

https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

Note: Queen Teaching with Ava Park, in person and online, check them out:

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Validation and Attachment

March.....  What a month!!! Can I say again? Maybe I get a repeat because this month has rocked my world big time! 9.99 Ritcher scale earthquake and that means "Severe damage to all or most buildings with massive destruction. Damage and shaking extends to distant locations. Ground changes. Death toll usually between 1,000 and several million."

When I read that definition I couldn´t help but rise my hand and say YES! This is me. I got hit in many areas in my life and as a Queen I have to sit quiet and find my center. Then detect, correct, and execute. I think I got that from the Securities and Exchange Commission motto Prevent, Dectect, Correct. Some things in life can´t be prevented but we can definitely detect them and correct the course so we don´t end up crashing to a big wall.

March has been a test month for me. I was confronted with many pieces of information and now I have to re-route my course of direction. As a Queen, I visioned my path but now I have to adjust because we can´t be static, we are moving and we are living the now moment. We are creating the future in the now moment and like a chest board we are adjusting to the moves that the universe makes. We couldn´t predict every move but we can certainly adjust.

During this month; I have been faced with issues about Validation and Attachment. It was not only me but several people in my circle have been experiencing similar topics or lessons so I thought it was time to meditate on what validation means and what attachment means. I just started listening to the book "The Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Luis Rubio, Jr." and in this book he talks about attaching ourselves to ideas that do not belong to us and the level of intensity we attach to those things will be revealed in how we feel about those things.  Sometimes we think things should be this way or that way and we are attached to the outcome even though we may be better off by flowing with the situation, just like water, following the current and seeing where it takes us. In his book, Miguel says that we need to learn to accept ourselves just as we are, perfect in the now moment just because we exist. We are bombarded with commercials that tell us we need this product to be happy, or we need to be skinnier to be perfect, or we need to be more beautiful... you name it, we are conditioned 24/7 to believe there is something wrong with us and we attach to those believes and let them rule our worlds. He keeps asking "Is knowledge controlling your life or are you controlling knowledge."

Validation is a big topic in general and I do feel we, women, usually seek validation outside more than others. My theory is that we have been conditioned by being born in a patriarchy that always places women below men. We have also had to live with the message that we are dirty because we bleed, that we are weak, that we are less than perfect, that there is something wrong with us. This message may be implicit and you got to read between the lines but it is a message women live with every day and we decide to become like men to reach equality when we need to find the power to live like strong women in a society led by men and show the world that we can be women and strong, we can be women and powerful, we don´t need to adapt and be like men because we are perfect as we are with all our female characteristics. 

In thinking about validation I realized that at times I have seek validation by different means. Sometimes talking to friends and finding consensus on the decisions I have made. Sometimes with divination trying to feel that the path I had chosen was the right for me and that I was not making a big mistake. Sometimes seeking approval from people I have put in a pedestal or up high and I respect. 

During March, I was tested in a big way and I have found my center. I know that the only validation I need is my own and that what I feel is right may not be right for others, but I am releasing my attachment to fit in, I am releasing my need for external validation and I am starting to live from my own center. I begin to accept that I am perfect just the way I am and that every situation fits perfectly in the big puzzle of life. I am in the drive and even though the maps are changing, my internal GPS is on and ready to go.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union
www.circulodeisis.org
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs

Yesterday, I was watching Katy Perry´s movie for the I am not sure what time... maybe 20?!?! and the phrase "She wants to be the first Katy Perry, she doesn´t want to be the next Avril Lavigne" resonated with me. When I heard this phrase, I thought... I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, or Z Budapest, or Vicky Noble... I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs. The way I see the world is unique and I don´t need validation for what I am seeing or creating. As Ava Park taught me, I am the Queen of my own realm and whoever wants to be part of my realm will have to follow my laws and rules. There are plenty of realms for everyone to choose from but if they choose mine, this Queen has her own rules. She may not see the world the way everyone else sees it. She may have rules that break all "normal" rules but it´s still her realm. She is the Queen.

So many times we feel we want to have this or that, we want to be like this person or that person. There is a lot of societal conditioning on what we want and also how we should live our lives but is that the way it is supposed to be. If you look within, can you see that things may not be black or white? Can you see that the rules that they set for us are not our rules? Why would we feel guilty if we are just choosing something different? Is that bad? It may be bad for some of the people who are  programed with the old conditioning but we are moving to the next era, the next evolution and we need to raise our vibrations. What was white before may be too strick right now and we need to learn that we can bend the rules, we can cheat at times because the program is outdated and does not know what we need now. We are the new human beings and we need to start living from a different place. What was before is no more and it´s time to change. It´s time to live from our own heart and soul and not let others determine who you are or have to be.

We can´t be the next X or Y or Z, we have to be our authentic selves. We are not shaped by rules anymore, only our own rules. We determine who we are and we drive our own cars of life. We are the driver, we are the conductor, we are the creatrix-creator. It´s time to say NO to the rest of the world and say YES to your own dream. What do you want? What´s your purpose? What´s your desire? 

I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

Member of the Archdruid Union

www.circulodeisis.org

Note: I can´t recommend Ava Park´s teaching more... her teachings are priceless. Check them out:

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Serenity in the presence of Chaos

As above, so below. As within, so without. Not many times in life I have the opportunity to witness my inner processes in the outside world. Sometimes, I get to see a rainbow and I know everything will be ok. Last weekend, I have the opportunity to witness the power of the sea crashing on rocky shores and that was me! I could feel the serenity in the face of the chaos of life. I could feel the grounded self planted in the soil feeling the waves crashing on myself and eroding those parts of me that do not serve me anymore. I could also feel the waves shaping me and creating a new woman but not moving the foundation that is really well planted and very solid. I know my core, I know my center. I can bend, I can shape, I can change but deep within, I will always be my core - a being full of light - a lighthouse.

During my trip, I was able to observe nature. The mists in the ocean, the crows flying around, the big trees talking, what a trip!!!! You could feel the magick all around you and feel the power of the Goddess filling you. Right there, I realized how disconnected we are becoming from this type of magic. We live in a world filled with technology. The same technology that connects us also keeps us apart or in limited contact. The other day, my best friend sent me a picture of people on a train and they were all looking at their phones, isolated in their own worlds. That picture got me thinking of how those technologies that make the world a global village also makes us disconnected from real people and real things. How we get sucked into the computer and forget to look at the trees or connect with the birds or go to the ocean to hear her sign.

I am a leader of an international organization and the people who belong to my circle are from all areas in the world. Technology keeps us together and connected in the web of life so I am very grateful for technology but connecting with Nature is also very important and there is a lot of magic to be seen in the real world. This is one of the reasons why I decided to start working on a new class for my community, one devoted to the Druid path and to connect with Nature. One that is based on experiencing nature and getting away from the computer. We need to feed our spirit with the energies of the environment and start seeing Nature as our teacher once again. It´s time to find harmony between technology and nature. It´s time to balance the scales so we can be whole individuals and not just zombies. It´s time to go back to the elemental powers and the fire of Divinity in everything. We are all one.

As I sat on the cliff, observing the waves breaking on the shore, I felt the power within, I felt serenity in the presence of chaos. I felt home.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor-Boggs

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

Member of the ArchDruid Union

www.circulodeisis.org

Finding your Center

Sign or not Sign? I say sign! I´ve been living my life in a very magical way since 12-21-12. The world did not end that day but something has shifted dramatically. Since that day, I live a life of purpose, I live a life of tuning with the energies, I live a life where I am not scared of detecting, correcting, executing and eliminating. I know those are very strong words but there is no time to play games anymore. It´s time to wake up and really find our center and live from that place of power, that place of ownership, that place of authenticity.

Last weekend I watched the movie Rise of the Guardians for the second time. I am usually the lady connecting the dots and seeing meaning on everything that is around me. When I watched this movie, the part that really stuck with me was when Santa Claus showed Jack Frost a babushka doll and asked him what his center was. A babushka doll is one that has many layers and each layer contained one of Santa Claus´characteristics - passionate, brave, loving.... till he got to the center and there was a baby with big eyes, eyes of wonder because he saw wonder in the world and that was his center. 

When I saw this scene, I couldn´t help to think what my center is and what other characteristics are contained in the babushka doll of my life. I know I am passionate, tenacious, happy, perseverant, and in my center there is light because I know I am meant to guide, I am meant to teach, I am meant to illuminate reality and shed light for others to find their way out of the darkness. That´s who I am. A lighthouse guiding those sailing through rough waters over to safe shore. I may do this by lighting up the air with jokes or by having a serious conversation where I point what I see for the person to meditate, observe, detect, and execute. What is your center?

Talking about our centers and the shift in energies since we crossed the 12-21-12 portal, it is time we are responsible for our own energies and our own manifestations. We are the magicians of our own lives and that´s also at our centers. We create our realities and we are not able to blame anybody else for our reality anymore. You can´t blame it on your lover for not creating the situation you want in your life. You can´t blame it on your boss for not giving you the promotions. You can´t blame it on any external situation because you are the creatrix or creator of your own world. If we all live from our centers, we are able to walk side by side in the journey of life but we are 100% responsible for our creations and we are the rulers of our worlds. When you move from your center or you put another person in your center, you lose power and you lose your ability to create your reality. Instead, you start living another person´s story and reality and lose sight of what is really important for you, your center.

I challenge you to find your center today and start living from there because when you start, your life will shift greatly and you will become the Great Wizard of OZ and by OZ, I just mean your life, your dream, your reality. If you can think it, you can create it. If you can create it, you can rule it. If you can rule it, you will sit in your power and your center. 

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Mutual and Reciprocal

During the past three months, I´ve been participating in Ava Park´s Queen Online Teachings class. This class is amazing and it has provided me with lots of meaningful information that I am trying to put into action. A few weeks ago, we were working on the Queen and Relationships and Ava started the chapter by saying that "Relationship means the "state of being mutually and reciprocally interested."" This phrase resonated with me  very strongly and made me think of all those times when I´ve been in a relationship where I do most of the work... I am the one texting, I am the one initiating, I am the one inviting the person out, I am the one reaching out to the other. In doing so, I give and give without receiving much what leads to the imminent death of the relationship.

When I read Ava´s phrase, I was like WOW. This is exactly how I feel and I have failed to realize that the relationship was not mutual and reciprocal. When only one person is interested in keeping the relationship going, this relationship has the days counted. The days till the end are determined by the tenacity and perseverance of the person who is driving the relationship. A relationship is like a plant, you have to water it or it will die and the two people involved are responsible for watering this plant of life. 

Looking back, I can see I have been involved in many relationships that were one sided. I can also see that I am a very tenacious woman and I will not give up easily but there are times when you have to give up and those times are when there is no hope to go on. There is no life left in the relationship and it´s time to just let go and move on.

There are times when relationships suffer because one of the parties is going through a rough patch and the other party has to give more than usual. This situation is only sustainable in the short term and has serious impact on the relationship if it lasts for a long period of time.

Sometimes we think relationships are forever but then realized that the lessons together have been learnt and there is nothing else to share. 

In the end, the question becomes are your relationships mutual and reciprocal? If not, is it time to let go?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Note: I highly recommend to attend a convocation  or participate in the online Queen teachings with Ava. These teachings are priceless and life changing.

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Wide Awake

A few weeks ago, one of my best friends told me I should watch the video Wide Awake by Katy Perry. If you read some of my blogs in 2012, you know Katy Perry talks to me in a very special way so when my friend told me to check this video I couldn´t help but go to youtube and see what she was talking about. After watching the video, I was fascinated! The Hermit! The Tower collapsing! So many symbols hidden in her video and they all talk to me and my last three weeks. I feel I am finally awake and ready to kung fu pow the false foundations and let go of everything that does not serve my purpose anymore. Yes, I was asleep and now I am awake.

Fear has the power to keep us down. We can think so many things but from the saying to the action there is a long way and at times we have to be patient with ourselves. I remember when my friend did a healing session to me on 12-12-12 and told me it was time for action. It was time to take the bull by the horns and execute. It was time to take the driver seat and press the gas pedal in my car, a car without rear mirrors so we can not look back, and move! action! trust! At that time, I was pretty tied to my situations and not ready to jump down the cliff, I was not ready to be the fool and start all over again.

As I kept listening to Katy, I really resonated with the song Pearl and I felt she was talking to me when she said:

"Do you know that there's a way out
There's a way out, there's a way out, there's a way out
You don't have to be held down
Be held down, be held down, be held down

'Cause I used to be a shell
Yeah, I let him rule my world, my world, oh yeah
But I will come and grow strong
And I can still go on, and no one can take my pearl

You don't have to be a shell, no
You're the one that rules your world, oh
You are strong and you'll learn that you can still go on
And you'll always be a, a pearl

She is unstoppable"

As I danced this song in the gym, I could feel the energy of the words and they casted a spell on me. They gave me strength. They gave me hope because I can definitely feel like the ruler of my world. I am the Queen of my Realm and I know that I can´t look the other way anymore.

These past four weeks have been a trip. Hypnosis sessions, self analysis, shadow work and really looking at myself in the mirror and looking straight in my eyes and asking whether this is the story I want to be living or not. Is this the realm I created? Is this what I want for the future? What do I want? Who do I want by my side? Many questions. I know I have changed lots in the past few weeks and my life has transformed in front of my eyes.

Now I am the designer of my world. Now I have a chance to re-create and co-create with the Universe. Now I can be me again. Now I can let go of pain and forgive and forget the past. Now I can look ahead and create the future I want in the now moment. I am a lighthouse and my foundations are very strong! I am not floating in the current or held down by foundations that are not mine. I am my own Captain. I am the driver of my own car of life, nobody is conducting me anymore.

I am wide awake.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
www.circulodeisis.org