I see, I feel, I illuminate

"If a lighthouse could be said to possess a soul, it would be the great light pouring from its lantern each night to guide home the lonely mariner. Like a star, it shines dependably and regularly every night. It can beam steadily or it can flash. Its beacon can be white, red to mark danger area, or red and green to show the port and starboard sides of a channel. Clouds and fog may obscure the beam, but when the skies are clear a lighthouse is a bright star by which to steer." (from The DeWire Guide to Lighthouses of the Pacific Coast - California, Oregon and Washignton by Elinor DeWire).

A few months ago, one of my students now ordained Priestess, Hester Aira, did a high healing session for me and in that session she told me I am a lighthouse and my purpose is to illuminate and bring clarity to people. Since she told me that, I´ve been researching lighthouses and became really interested in these icons of light. Hester´s words resonated with the worlds of my teacher and mentor, Linda Iles when she told me that I would become the torch guiding my students in the mysteries of Isis as a new Priestess Hierophant. If I combine both messages received within a three year period, I know that I am meant to shed light on situations and guide.

Being a lighthouse is not an easy task. It requires one to really see everything in situations and to illuminate the darkness that some people are not ready to see. Lighthouses shine so hard that you can see everything, the good, the bad and the ugly. Some people don´t like seeing the ugly. They may deny it, it may show them a part of themselves they don´t really see as personal but instead they project on others, or they may be totally unaware of these parts of themselves. During the past few months, my vision has become very clear and I can see things I did not see before, I see patterns and I feel energies that I was not aware I could see or feel. It´s been an amazing experience to be able to see through and connect at that level because it allows me to feel we are all one and we are all connected. This awareness also allows me not to judge others because others are also me and if I am judging them, I am judging myself as well and how could I? How can I judge the behavior of one person when it´s just a reflection of myself? I can only love that person unconditionally and love them just the way they are. If the situation calls for it, I will shed light on their situation but not judgement. I will just illuminate their way so they can see where they need to go and get out of the darkness. In this capacity, I am reminded of the words of my mentor and creator of the Queen Teachings, Ava Park, when she says "The Queen just sheds light and walks away." 

My journey of shedding light started several years ago when I got my first tarot deck and I started learning the cards. My first cards came in the magazine Cosmopolitan and I remember I was about 12 years old and I started playing with the cards and doing readings for my friends. As time went by, I got the traditional Raider White deck and started doing readings for my whole family, my cousins, my cousins´friends, and many more. It´s funny that even today, every time I go back home the first question I get is "did you bring your cards?" This is the confirmation that I had shed light for them.

When I was 19 years old, I started studying Astrology and that has become my second tool for illuminating the path of others as well as my own path. I got my natal chart done when I was 18 years old and it was so accurate that I became a believer of that science and it combined with my love for the Tarot and divination.

Today I feel that all the tools I´ve learned in the past will complement my journey towards my purpose of being a lighthouse for others. I feel that my intuition is growing very strong and now...

I see, I feel, I illuminate.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Member of the ArchDruid Union under the Fellowship of Isis

https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

Note:

About Hester Aira and High Healing

http://hesteraira.wix.com/hester-aira

About Ava Park and the Queen Teachings

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Being One with Nature

There are times in life when magic and reality blend in and we don´t know whether we are part of a movie or we are just living in the real world. Last weekend I had the opportunity to experience magic first hand. I spent the weekend with a group of friends in South Lake Tahoe and I got to experience the elements and their magic.

The place was spectacular! In the back of the cabin we were staying in, there was a river flowing. We were surrounded by trees, rocks and birds. The energies of Nature were running high in this location and I couldn´t help but tap into the power of the animal spirit. The trip began with my best friend handing me a big stick that became my power staff as soon as I grabbed it. He gave me this stick to help me balance while walking on a log on top of the river. It was scary to try to get to the rock and not fall in the water but the adrenalin rush was exhilarating and it was an amazing experience. I could feel my Maiden Queen coming out and saying come on!!!! No Fear!!! Just Do It!

In the evening, I enjoyed summoning the wind and feeling the Silfides all around playing with me. You could feel the power of the wind blowing and moving the trees. It was such a powerful experience feeling it blow with such a strength but I was deeply grounded and asking for more. 

On Saturday, I continued my journey with the elements and I decided it was time for me to cross the river. I went for a hike by myself and as I reached the shores of the stream, I felt compeled to cross it. The current was very strong and I know I may have been a little out of my mind to attempt such a thing but once again, my Maiden spirit was saying... Do it!!!!! Feel the power of the current and go with it. You can do it. As I started crossing the river, I could feel my legs shaking because the current was so hard and as I stopped to gain balance I was thinking... you should keep moving, this is freezing water and your feet will freeze. I reached the other end of the river and I was filled with accomplishment but that was not it, I had to go back to the other shore to get back to the cabin so I started my way back and in the middle of the stream, I grabbed a rock as a reminder of me crossing the river so every time I feel like I am not strong enough, I can remember this day and this time. When I got back to the shore, I did my happy dance and six blue jays came to talk to me and celebrate I had crossed the river! There were some crows too. I felt a little bit like Snow White connecting with the animals from the forest but it was one of the most empowering moments in my life. I felt I was alive and I could conquer my fears.

Looking back, I know it was a snowboarding weekend that turned into my first full blown Druid experience. I couldn´t help but think about the book I am reading "The Path of Druidry by Penny Billington" when she says... a modern druid is one that is reading a book and stops looks around, notices the spider and says hello to her, then goes back to the book. I did a lot of mundane things during the weekend but I definitely stopped, observed nature and pay my reverence and devotion to Mother Nature in all her forms.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Member of the Archdruid Union

https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

Filling the Gaps

While driving to work today, I was listening to the book "Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr." In this CD, he was talking about the power of our minds and how the fill in the gaps of information with past conditioning. He gave an exercise that is very common, he said to draw a circle but stop before you can complete it and look at it, your mind will recognize the circle even if it is not complete. The same happens when a person misses a word in a sentence and the brain will complete the sentence so it makes sense. Our minds add meaning to the gaps and the way our minds fill those gaps is with feelings and experiences from the past.

If your mind is similar to mine, it usually has a selective memory for negative experiences! Is it? Is your mind similar to mine?  It´s funny how my mind can fill the gaps with the worst case scenario. I remember when I was working with Ava Park on the societal myths I have and one I was very attached to was that "Always be prepared for the worst" and yes the word worst is included. If a friend does not call me, I may think he or she is mad. If a person does not fulfill a promise I think there is something wrong with me... well, that is in the past. But, in the past, I did fill in the gaps with the negative experiences I had before. Those experiences that supported the feeling that I am not enough, that there is something missing with me, that I am not perfect just in my imperfect ways.

After studying the Queen Teachings with Ava Park for about one year and a half, I have come to realize that I do not need to fill in the gaps with negative emotions or positive emotions. I just need to remain present in the now moment and if I need clarification of any situation that resembles to something from the past, I can directly ask the person or evaluate the situation. I don´t need to support any previous statement that does not fit me anymore. I am also able to ask clearly what the situation is and I am also able to express my feelings in a very non-emotional way. I am just stating what I feel in an impersonal way.

Filling the gaps has only brought me conflict and confrontation, stress and anxiety. From now on, I am done with filling the gaps. Now, I choose the clarity of the Queen and the presence in the now moment without making any assumptions. Can you say the same?

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org

Member of the ArchDruid Union under the Fellowship of Isis

https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

Note: Queen Teaching with Ava Park, in person and online, check them out:

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Validation and Attachment

March.....  What a month!!! Can I say again? Maybe I get a repeat because this month has rocked my world big time! 9.99 Ritcher scale earthquake and that means "Severe damage to all or most buildings with massive destruction. Damage and shaking extends to distant locations. Ground changes. Death toll usually between 1,000 and several million."

When I read that definition I couldn´t help but rise my hand and say YES! This is me. I got hit in many areas in my life and as a Queen I have to sit quiet and find my center. Then detect, correct, and execute. I think I got that from the Securities and Exchange Commission motto Prevent, Dectect, Correct. Some things in life can´t be prevented but we can definitely detect them and correct the course so we don´t end up crashing to a big wall.

March has been a test month for me. I was confronted with many pieces of information and now I have to re-route my course of direction. As a Queen, I visioned my path but now I have to adjust because we can´t be static, we are moving and we are living the now moment. We are creating the future in the now moment and like a chest board we are adjusting to the moves that the universe makes. We couldn´t predict every move but we can certainly adjust.

During this month; I have been faced with issues about Validation and Attachment. It was not only me but several people in my circle have been experiencing similar topics or lessons so I thought it was time to meditate on what validation means and what attachment means. I just started listening to the book "The Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Luis Rubio, Jr." and in this book he talks about attaching ourselves to ideas that do not belong to us and the level of intensity we attach to those things will be revealed in how we feel about those things.  Sometimes we think things should be this way or that way and we are attached to the outcome even though we may be better off by flowing with the situation, just like water, following the current and seeing where it takes us. In his book, Miguel says that we need to learn to accept ourselves just as we are, perfect in the now moment just because we exist. We are bombarded with commercials that tell us we need this product to be happy, or we need to be skinnier to be perfect, or we need to be more beautiful... you name it, we are conditioned 24/7 to believe there is something wrong with us and we attach to those believes and let them rule our worlds. He keeps asking "Is knowledge controlling your life or are you controlling knowledge."

Validation is a big topic in general and I do feel we, women, usually seek validation outside more than others. My theory is that we have been conditioned by being born in a patriarchy that always places women below men. We have also had to live with the message that we are dirty because we bleed, that we are weak, that we are less than perfect, that there is something wrong with us. This message may be implicit and you got to read between the lines but it is a message women live with every day and we decide to become like men to reach equality when we need to find the power to live like strong women in a society led by men and show the world that we can be women and strong, we can be women and powerful, we don´t need to adapt and be like men because we are perfect as we are with all our female characteristics. 

In thinking about validation I realized that at times I have seek validation by different means. Sometimes talking to friends and finding consensus on the decisions I have made. Sometimes with divination trying to feel that the path I had chosen was the right for me and that I was not making a big mistake. Sometimes seeking approval from people I have put in a pedestal or up high and I respect. 

During March, I was tested in a big way and I have found my center. I know that the only validation I need is my own and that what I feel is right may not be right for others, but I am releasing my attachment to fit in, I am releasing my need for external validation and I am starting to live from my own center. I begin to accept that I am perfect just the way I am and that every situation fits perfectly in the big puzzle of life. I am in the drive and even though the maps are changing, my internal GPS is on and ready to go.

Many blessings,
Lady Carolina
Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis
Member of the ArchDruid Union
www.circulodeisis.org
https://sites.google.com/site/fellowshipofisiscentral/fellowship-of-isis-foundation-union-triad---archdruid-union

I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs

Yesterday, I was watching Katy Perry´s movie for the I am not sure what time... maybe 20?!?! and the phrase "She wants to be the first Katy Perry, she doesn´t want to be the next Avril Lavigne" resonated with me. When I heard this phrase, I thought... I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, or Z Budapest, or Vicky Noble... I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs. The way I see the world is unique and I don´t need validation for what I am seeing or creating. As Ava Park taught me, I am the Queen of my own realm and whoever wants to be part of my realm will have to follow my laws and rules. There are plenty of realms for everyone to choose from but if they choose mine, this Queen has her own rules. She may not see the world the way everyone else sees it. She may have rules that break all "normal" rules but it´s still her realm. She is the Queen.

So many times we feel we want to have this or that, we want to be like this person or that person. There is a lot of societal conditioning on what we want and also how we should live our lives but is that the way it is supposed to be. If you look within, can you see that things may not be black or white? Can you see that the rules that they set for us are not our rules? Why would we feel guilty if we are just choosing something different? Is that bad? It may be bad for some of the people who are  programed with the old conditioning but we are moving to the next era, the next evolution and we need to raise our vibrations. What was white before may be too strick right now and we need to learn that we can bend the rules, we can cheat at times because the program is outdated and does not know what we need now. We are the new human beings and we need to start living from a different place. What was before is no more and it´s time to change. It´s time to live from our own heart and soul and not let others determine who you are or have to be.

We can´t be the next X or Y or Z, we have to be our authentic selves. We are not shaped by rules anymore, only our own rules. We determine who we are and we drive our own cars of life. We are the driver, we are the conductor, we are the creatrix-creator. It´s time to say NO to the rest of the world and say YES to your own dream. What do you want? What´s your purpose? What´s your desire? 

I don´t want to be the next Lady Olivia Robertson, I want to be the first Carolina Amor-Boggs.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

Member of the Archdruid Union

www.circulodeisis.org

Note: I can´t recommend Ava Park´s teaching more... her teachings are priceless. Check them out:

http://goddesstempleoforangecounty.com/About_Rev_Ava.html

Serenity in the presence of Chaos

As above, so below. As within, so without. Not many times in life I have the opportunity to witness my inner processes in the outside world. Sometimes, I get to see a rainbow and I know everything will be ok. Last weekend, I have the opportunity to witness the power of the sea crashing on rocky shores and that was me! I could feel the serenity in the face of the chaos of life. I could feel the grounded self planted in the soil feeling the waves crashing on myself and eroding those parts of me that do not serve me anymore. I could also feel the waves shaping me and creating a new woman but not moving the foundation that is really well planted and very solid. I know my core, I know my center. I can bend, I can shape, I can change but deep within, I will always be my core - a being full of light - a lighthouse.

During my trip, I was able to observe nature. The mists in the ocean, the crows flying around, the big trees talking, what a trip!!!! You could feel the magick all around you and feel the power of the Goddess filling you. Right there, I realized how disconnected we are becoming from this type of magic. We live in a world filled with technology. The same technology that connects us also keeps us apart or in limited contact. The other day, my best friend sent me a picture of people on a train and they were all looking at their phones, isolated in their own worlds. That picture got me thinking of how those technologies that make the world a global village also makes us disconnected from real people and real things. How we get sucked into the computer and forget to look at the trees or connect with the birds or go to the ocean to hear her sign.

I am a leader of an international organization and the people who belong to my circle are from all areas in the world. Technology keeps us together and connected in the web of life so I am very grateful for technology but connecting with Nature is also very important and there is a lot of magic to be seen in the real world. This is one of the reasons why I decided to start working on a new class for my community, one devoted to the Druid path and to connect with Nature. One that is based on experiencing nature and getting away from the computer. We need to feed our spirit with the energies of the environment and start seeing Nature as our teacher once again. It´s time to find harmony between technology and nature. It´s time to balance the scales so we can be whole individuals and not just zombies. It´s time to go back to the elemental powers and the fire of Divinity in everything. We are all one.

As I sat on the cliff, observing the waves breaking on the shore, I felt the power within, I felt serenity in the presence of chaos. I felt home.

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina Amor-Boggs

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

Member of the ArchDruid Union

www.circulodeisis.org

Finding your Center

Sign or not Sign? I say sign! I´ve been living my life in a very magical way since 12-21-12. The world did not end that day but something has shifted dramatically. Since that day, I live a life of purpose, I live a life of tuning with the energies, I live a life where I am not scared of detecting, correcting, executing and eliminating. I know those are very strong words but there is no time to play games anymore. It´s time to wake up and really find our center and live from that place of power, that place of ownership, that place of authenticity.

Last weekend I watched the movie Rise of the Guardians for the second time. I am usually the lady connecting the dots and seeing meaning on everything that is around me. When I watched this movie, the part that really stuck with me was when Santa Claus showed Jack Frost a babushka doll and asked him what his center was. A babushka doll is one that has many layers and each layer contained one of Santa Claus´characteristics - passionate, brave, loving.... till he got to the center and there was a baby with big eyes, eyes of wonder because he saw wonder in the world and that was his center. 

When I saw this scene, I couldn´t help to think what my center is and what other characteristics are contained in the babushka doll of my life. I know I am passionate, tenacious, happy, perseverant, and in my center there is light because I know I am meant to guide, I am meant to teach, I am meant to illuminate reality and shed light for others to find their way out of the darkness. That´s who I am. A lighthouse guiding those sailing through rough waters over to safe shore. I may do this by lighting up the air with jokes or by having a serious conversation where I point what I see for the person to meditate, observe, detect, and execute. What is your center?

Talking about our centers and the shift in energies since we crossed the 12-21-12 portal, it is time we are responsible for our own energies and our own manifestations. We are the magicians of our own lives and that´s also at our centers. We create our realities and we are not able to blame anybody else for our reality anymore. You can´t blame it on your lover for not creating the situation you want in your life. You can´t blame it on your boss for not giving you the promotions. You can´t blame it on any external situation because you are the creatrix or creator of your own world. If we all live from our centers, we are able to walk side by side in the journey of life but we are 100% responsible for our creations and we are the rulers of our worlds. When you move from your center or you put another person in your center, you lose power and you lose your ability to create your reality. Instead, you start living another person´s story and reality and lose sight of what is really important for you, your center.

I challenge you to find your center today and start living from there because when you start, your life will shift greatly and you will become the Great Wizard of OZ and by OZ, I just mean your life, your dream, your reality. If you can think it, you can create it. If you can create it, you can rule it. If you can rule it, you will sit in your power and your center. 

Many blessings,

Lady Carolina

Presiding Priestess of Circulo de Isis

www.circulodeisis.org